Today I celebrate my 50th Birthday. I love this pic because it was a day that I shared my story. I am overwhelmed by the gratitude that I feel and cherish every memory, both good and bad, for it has brought me to this point in my life that I am able to stand up and use my voice to overcome fear that has kept me quiet for so long. I thank God for His gift of life and the ability to reclaim my freedom!💗

“For if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

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I was attacked

at the very core

of my being and

was told to end it.

That I was not going to

live past the depression,

the anxiety and the tremendous

amount of pain.

The lies, and self hatred

tried to overshadow every ounce

of hope and faith

I previously held onto.

Even though I walk through the

darkest valley…

Fragmented pieces of the

memories came flashing

back as I tried to piece them

together and make sense

of the realization that these

were not nightmares but

factual suppressed recollections.

I will fear no evil…for you are with me….

It was too much!

I felt as if I was literally being

ripped from the inside out.

Every part of my body ached

as I exposed the truth and

walked through the dark

murkiness of my past.

You protect and guide me,

and I find comfort as you console me…

In my despair,

I wept, as I released the pain.

You are repairing all the damage

that was done to me,

and restoring the deepest,

most real part of me.

Lord, my strength and hope, comes from you.

(*Psalm 23)

~ denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

Healing is possible, when you choose to admit you need healing. Take the pain to the healer. 💗

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

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The dangers of an untold story…

Embellished

with the

battle scars

of words

that were silenced,

hidden beneath

the watchful eyes

of others criticism,

the fear of becoming

blemished in the eyes

of the accusers,

previously kept

the story untold.

~ denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

She stood

back from

the ledge of

familiar,

and viewed

each wall

that had

compiled itself

around the

perimeters of

her bleeding

heart.

She quietly

stood still

as peace

tauntingly

stood before her,

appearing

like an old

unfamiliar

friend.

There, in this

place of unrest

she quietly

stepped back,

removed

the blinders

from her eyes,

and surrendered

her life,

for His promise.

~ denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

Instead of cursing the darkness…

She uncovered the secrets

that haunted her in the

middle of the night,

those undisclosed images

that had been safely tucked away

in the remote areas of her mind.

Instead of cursing the darkness…

she bravely faced the heaviness,

that laid dormant around the

very core of her being.

Instead of cursing the darkness…

she stood up to the lies,

that attempted to strip her

of her garments of truth.

Instead of cursing the darkness…

she denounced its permission

to define her worth.

Instead of cursing the darkness…

she lit a match,

and watched the

darkness flee.

(Let light shine out of darkness.

2 Cor.4:6)

~denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

Emerge…to rise from.

Shatter the glass of any

negative in your past,

remove the burden carried

upon your back.

Cut the rope from

around your neck

that’s attempting to

choke your reality.

Stand with Hope & Truth,

to face all trials with dignity.

Breathe deep the fragrance

of Sweet Victory.

Stand up and know

exactly who you are,

Lift your head my Sister

and no longer look down.

For a Virtuous Woman is

Emerging from within.

~denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

**Art Credit: Leonid Afremov

Beauty defined…

Her outward

appearance

does not define

her worth,

for she has

the ability to

see beneath

the surface to

the foundation

of her inner

strength.

She draws

wisdom,

from this

place within,

deciphering

truth from lies,

trading insecurities

for her crown

of beauty,

and upholding

hope over defeat.

~ denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

**Art credit: @artbybriahna https://www.artbybri.com/

Awaken yourself…

Fear kept

me bound

to circumstances

that stripped

me of my

self-worth.

Awareness,

of the need

to change

my perspective,

opened up

my ability

to love

myself.

Belief in

who He is,

bought my

freedom.

~ denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

Healing from Trauma is a process…

Moving slow and steady as each layer of darkness is exposed to His light, I’m no longer masking, covering up or remaining silent as I am learning to trust the process of true healing and the work it takes to reclaim my life.💗

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

In times of difficulty, I am learning to lean into Faith instead of fear, trusting God as I grow closer to Him in the process.

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

Words that are silenced are lethal….

Words that are silenced, are lethal secrets to destroy your soul. Speak your truth.

Many times it’s hard to remember the exact details of all the great memories that my Mom and I shared in my childhood. The confusion and pain of being sexually abused as a child, tried to overshadow the good times.

For so many years, I was afraid to tell anyone because I thought that they wouldn’t believe me. I blamed myself and carried the shame of those secrets.

When I was 40 years old, I told my Mom that I had been molested & raped as a teenager…and she believed me. She then asked me to forgive her for not protecting me.

I fell to the ground, as I weeped and screamed from the depths of my soul, every ounce of pain that had been confined was being released, as she quietly and lovingly held me.

She then, told me that she too was sexually abused as a child. This moment, yet painful was the beginning of much healing in our relationship.

~ denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

The cause to become….

She abruptly

stood up

and heard the

clashing sound

of the chains

that fell

from around

her waist,

this bondage

was no longer

welcomed to

take up residence

amongst her being.

There in this space

is where she

released the

unconscious

questioning

of who she

thought she was,

to consciously

becoming aware

of the truth,

of who she is.

She honored herself

and rendered

her freedom.

~ denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

**Artist unknown

For so long, I had fought against the lies that had kept me bound to feeling unworthy. But now I know the truth and learning to apply it daily as I continue to renew my mind and change my life according to His Truth.

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

Choosing to surrender…

Anxiety and fear had been a thief, literally stealing my joy. It jumbled up my thoughts, and caused my heart to race, leaving me with many sleepless nights and a just below the surface agitation that made me want to crawl out of my skin and run away.

The last two years have been life altering and I am learning what it means to release my need to control and to put my complete trust in God. There are good days and difficult ones, but I choose to take things, one step at a time, as I receive His peace.

Peace I leave with you, my Peace I give you. Not as the world gives. Don’t let your hearts be troubled and don’t be afraid.

John 14.27.

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

Layers upon layers…

As you bravely,

peel back,

each layer,

revealing

the deep roots

of secrets that

have gracefully

been hidden

beneath the pain

of stories untold.

There in this place

is where you have

remained concealed.

Surrender,

and allow

His light

and grace

to heal that

sacred space

in which you’ve

kept hidden.

~denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

**Artist Credit: Briahna Wenke

artbybri.com IG: @artbybriahna

It’s ok, to get back up again…

You are courageous, gifted and capable. So, take a deep breath and get back up again.

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

Self-acceptance…

Feelings of inadequacy comes from viewing myself only from the opinions and validation of others. The ability to love myself and love others comes from the freedom of knowing that the approval of others does not define my value and my worth. The truth is that God says, I am redeemed, accepted and so very loved, and in this Truth, is where I choose to stand.

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

No need to perform…

Look at me

Notice me

See me

The whirlwind of

attention seeking

Performance based

Gratification.

Sharing your

Every move

With more strangers,

Than friends.

The scrolling trap,

leads to the

constant comparing

and viewing of

seducing images,

Which keeps the mind trapped

in chasing the

next dopamine high.

It only takes

a quick flick

of the thumb,

a simple swipe

to bring instant

temporary satisfaction.

Thousands of followers

Likes and friend requests,

Yet the emptiness your

seeking to fulfill

is a futile attempt

to fill the void

for significance,

which continues

to go unmet.

~denise marie

You were created for SO much more…

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

No longer held captive by…self-blame.

Continuous

apologizing

for others

actions,

words,

or

deeds,

is mentally

binding you

to the

ownership of

others problems.

It’s ok to

free yourself

from the

insanity.

~ denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

Free yourself…

Free yourself

from excessive

perfectionism,

it’s an inhibited

attempt to

find your identity

within the borders

of others standards.

Free yourself

~denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

She once was lost…

She had been lost.

circling

endlessly

in the

familiar

yet

damaging

safe

space

within

her own

barriers.

Slowly

watching

the fibers

of her

identity

unravel,

fading away.

With

every

thread

being

pulled,

she could

no longer

sit still

willingly

giving it all away.

The one who had

been lost,

is no longer missing.

~ denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

No longer held captive by…shame

She uncovered the secrets that haunted her in the middle of the night,

those undisclosed images that had been safely tucked away in the remote

areas of her mind, are no longer

given permission to run rampant

through her thoughts.

Courageously, she stood up

and faced those lies,

that had comfortably laid itself

dormant around the very core of her being.

She stripped herself of the heaviness,

that attempted to overshadow

every good thing.

And bravely, no longer allowed fear

to define her worth.

~denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

No longer held captive by…depression

It laid itself dormant amongst the

barriers of her heart,

the longing, in a hungry pursuit

of this illusion for happiness.

the place where she wrapped

herself in temporary moments

by filling each need with the status quo ego.

this perfect appearance

portrayed itself amongst the

imperfect deception.

but then,

in the most inconspicuous places

she found her Joy,

and as she engrossed herself,

she found this treasure

to be a gift,

and promised to never let it go.

In your presence is fullness of Joy- Psalm 16:11

~ denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

No longer held captive by…shame

Every troubled heart

cries out to this earth for its relief,

but searching there alone,

won’t bring you peace.

Like moths to a flame,

disoriented by failed attempts to fill

your brokenness with good deeds.

This yearning for wholeness,

and the unending need

for acceptance,

can’t be found,

in the hands of others.

Free yourself from the weight of the

tattered alabaster box,

and receive the gift of significance.

~denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

No longer held captive by…anxiety

5…4…3…2…1…

frantic images are vividly playing out behind my eyes…

my mind is racing and all of my senses are heightened to the point that I literally want to RUN out of my own skin…

it’s a thief…

attempting to rob me of my tranquility…

what do I “see”

what do I “hear”

what do I “smell”

what do I “feel”

what do I “taste”

they say grounding brings me back to reality

it does….but then what?

I say….

i’m fleeing…

to my place of peace…

where He quiets my racing pulse…

and speaks peace to the frantic storm…

welcoming me with open arms…

I calmly exhale my fear…and inhale serenity.

~ denise marie

When anxiety overwhelms me, your Word comforts me and brings me joy.

– Psalm 94:19

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36