It’s a 2 bowls of ice cream kind of day….

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Sitting on the lazy boy this beautiful Sunday afternoon, I glance over my left shoulder and see the results of my love of ice cream….uuuggghhhh….emotional eating at its finest…
I could not figure out what was triggering me to scarf down half of the cookies and cream AND orange sherbert in one sitting? I wanted to quickly discard of the evidence so the kids and hubby would not know that Mom ate so much of the carton. But..it was too late, they already knew it was in the freezer and they would be looking for it after dinner. My weakness will be exposed, I might as well prepare myself to face the music and possible blank looks of disbelief that Mom could actually devour that much ice cream! At this point, I can only laugh at myself to keep from crying.
What is wrong with me? Our morning was wonderful, the message at church was incredible. Our Pastor spoke about Abraham and Sarah. As I sat there taking notes and embracing every word he said, I felt as if he was speaking directly to me. Thats it…the emotional binge eating this afternoon is a direct response to my anxious emotions of what I know I have to be obediant in. God is working on my heart and I have to change if I want to see changes in my life…ouch…sometimes it really bites to realize “we are not in control” of our EVERYTHING, and in order to allow God to work in our lives, we have to truly Let Go and Trust Him. As much as I thought I was trusting Him, I was controlling so many areas and people in my life, how could I expect God to do His work if I was in the way? I was giving God my problems, but I was also giving Him MY solution…
I was overcome with emotion when I could finally “see” that I was in the way of what God is trying to do in my life. I took a moment in prayer and asked God to forgive me. And I asked Him to Lead my Journey…

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4 Comments Add yours

  1. Arlene says:

    That, my sister, is what break through looks like…release to receive! His will…His way. Looking forward to hear how amazing your journey looks like as it unfolds. Bless you!!

    1. bnewvision says:

      Thank you Arlene!!

  2. Sometimes ice cream really helps. I often experience wonderful revelations while enjoying banana split ice cream myself. Don’t be hard on yourself for the ice cream, you are moving through it all, finding your path. Stops for ice cream are most certainly allowed. <3Peace

    1. bnewvision says:

      Thank you! I appreciate you reminding me to “enjoy” the moment and not be so hard on myself. Yes, the ice cream was sooooo good! 🙂

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