Because This Broken Road, Prepares Your Will For Me.

After I made the decision to heal from the abuse of my past, there were some day’s that I struggled to get out of bed. The demands of being a mom, a wife, an employee and the expectations that I portrayed to everyone of being a “Super Woman”,  had me stretched beyond measure.  There was a morning that my emotions were out of control, I had a nervous stomach and had been vomiting. As I stood in front of my mirror, I could barely keep the tears from falling down my face as I tried to apply my make-up, it just was not going to happen that day.  What was wrong with me? I normally can “hold it together”. I yelled to my husband and let him know that he would be the one dropping the kid’s off at school, and I dragged myself back into bed. As I laid there, I turned on the radio and heard this song, “Walk By Faith” By Jeremy Camp. The song calmed my nerves, spoke to my spirit and let me know that His Grace Covers Me.

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  1. Reblogged this on Speakingtruthinlove's Blog and commented:
    We all feel like giving up sometimes.

    1. bnewvision says:

      Thank you for reblogging!

  2. Claire Cappetta says:

    I hear you, sometimes we need to rest and shut down. When I’ve done I liken it to re-booting my phone when it crashes. When I’ve ‘re-booted’ I feel a little more healed and centered, I hope it’s the same for you

    1. bnewvision says:

      Hi Claire,
      Exactly! We all need to “re-boot”! And once I do, I am able to balance out and feel centered. Thanks!!

  3. I felt my heart break when I read this. I know exactly what you are talking about! And the title stabbed me in the heart! Many times I have looked at the broken, splintered road behind me and know that somehow God has caused all of THAT to work together for his glory and my good!

    1. bnewvision says:

      I agree. Sometimes, I look at the “past” and say, this is just not fair! Then I am humbled when I read God’s word and see that many people have had terrible, unfair, devastating things happen to them. And above all, Jesus suffered, and He is Healing me, He loves me, and showing me that what the enemy tried to use to destroy me, God is using to restore, encourage and help others.

  4. Most of us, if not all of us, who have gone through the painful journey of healing–or who are on that ongoing journey–understand this battle. You are not alone. We hide it. We seldom speak of it. But most of us go through a few very dark, depressed valleys in the process. Bless you for sharing. Bless you for daring to heal.

    1. bnewvision says:

      Thank you Trudy!

  5. Lisa says:

    I am the mother of a sexually abused daughter. I relate to your morning – I have had more mornings like that than I can count. Somehow we find the strength, don’t we … and it is ONLY when I look toward Jesus that I can make it through one more day. I need a song, a Bible verse, an encouraging word from a friend … that’s where our peace comes from. Thank you for sharing. You captured the emotion well. Bless you.

    1. bnewvision says:

      Hi Lisa, Thank you for your comment and for being brave enough to go thru this journey as the Mom of a daughter who was abused. The pain at times is unbearable, but as you have stated, with Jesus, He is our strength. I could not do this without him and a support system of a trusted few who I can talk to. I am praying for you and your daughter and truly Believe that Restoration is possible. Keep the Faith! Hugs!

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