Innocence of a Little Girl…

I am an Adult Survivor of Childhood Sexual Abuse. I was sexually abused between the ages of 3 – 12, by several different people. I created this Blog to give you a glimpse into my Healing Journey. The following is just one of the incidents I encountered. As you follow my journey, I hope to encourage and give you hope that you too can overcome any situation. Blessings to you ~ Denise aka bnewvision. 

Being molested at an early age,  caused me to have unclear boundaries. Like any child, I enjoyed the attention of people, but when the attention turned into a distorted violation against me, I became numb to the abuse and accepted whatever someone wanted to do to me.

As a 5 year old little girl, all I wanted was to be was a princess, a carefree, adventurous, beautiful princess. I danced in a tutu and tapped in tap shoes. I wanted to explore and discover my world, by my terms, as long as it included something pink and frilly. During that time, my Mom and I temporarily moved into a friends house.  Her friend had a son that was around 12 years old and we were like cousins. He was someone I looked up to, who was really nice and would play fun games with me. As time went on, the games we played turned into “special” games. I was confused and not sure how to handle his “special” attention. He never threatened me not to tell on him, and I was not forced into letting him touch me. I was loyal to his desire to play with my body.

The abuse clouded my sunny days and my world became a suspicious, misleading playground of illusions.

How could someone who was so nice towards me, also want to hurt me? How could someone who I trusted, turn around and no longer be someone who I could trust? How could you use my body for your sexual satisfaction? I was nothing more than a child, an innocent little girl.

As an adult, I now realize that as a child, I was groomed by many violators to be sexually abused.

We are in the middle of April, which is Sexual Assault Awareness Month. I would like to encourage you to help make a change, bring awareness and take a stand against Sexual Assault. A fellow blogger, Motivational Speaker and Author,  Ressurrection Graves  has created a petition on change.org.   To  Make Child Sexual Abuse Grooming A Felony. Please take a moment to Sign the Petition.

Thank you!
Denise Boyd Copyright ©

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11 Comments Add yours

  1. I have tears in my eyes. I can not thank you enough for your support. I am grateful to connect with you and look forward to ending child sexual abuse together. Blessings to you, Ressurrection Graves

    1. bnewvision says:

      You are more than welcome Ress! It is truly an honor to encourage others to sign the petition and speak out about ending childhood sexual abuse. There are currently too many children suffering and too many have already suffered at the hands of an abuser.

  2. Reblogged this on Love, Life, and Relationships: Overcoming Emotional and Child Sexual Abuse and commented:
    I am always so empowered when I see others initiating their cause. Today, I am thankful to bnewvision.wordpress.com for sharing a little bit of her own memory about being groomed as a child so that we can make it a felony. This is not a fight I chose, but I have to finish this – I have too. I am thankful that their is a team forming who is as purposeful, strong, capable and passionate about being free for themselves, and others as I am. Please check out her post, and watch her journey as well.

    Please remember to sign the petition! http://www.change.org/petitions/make-child-sexual-abuse-grooming-a-felony

  3. I, too, was raped and molested from the time I was 7 years old, until I was 15. My boundaries were way out of whack, but I was not able to reign them in until my 40’s. My goal is to make others aware of how devestating child sexual assault is, and to help those who have endured sexual abuse to heal. God bless you!

    1. bnewvision says:

      Wow! When I hear the stories of other’s, it breaks my heart and empowers me to keep moving forward in this fight. What was used as a weapon to try to destroy us, I Believe that God is using to bring Restoration to us and other’s. Let’s continue to join arms and move forward in this fight to bring awareness to childhood sexual abuse. Hugs to you!!!!

      1. One poem (Mercy Heard and Mercy Saw) states; ‘What Satan meant for evil child, I’ll use for good this day” says it perfectly. Satan used childhood sexual assault to destroy our souls… but God had other plans! I have been very vocal, I have a FB page where I encourage others (Whispers From My Heart) and will continue here, to encourage those who have been abused.

  4. nikky44 says:

    My cousin has used and abused me too from the age of 5 or 6 to the age of 16. Thank you for sharing Denise. I shared on Facebook and i would do anything to help raise awareness.

    1. bnewvision says:

      Your welcome Nikky. Thank you for sharing as well. We are all on this journey together to heal and by sharing, we can help others on their journey to healing. We are not alone and together we can bring an end to childhood sexual abuse. Stay encouraged! Hugs!

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